24.10.10

how many times have you broken promises you've made to yourself?

no, it's not the tiny promises - i'm going to work out everyday, i'm only going to eat only one chocolate a day, i'm going to take the bus today, i'm going to read at least one book a week. those are really not even promises. they're games you play with your conscience. you mock it, it mocks you back.

the bigger promises. the ones that weigh you down. you know you have to get out of bed in the morning because you've made them. you're thinking of losing weight and reading lots and taking buses, but these bigger ones are the ones driving you. you get up and move on because of them.

my heart is in my stomach. it has been there for some time now.

this is me, breaking promises.